I'd just like to take a quick break from work and share how my dad is: my dad is doing good and bad at the same time. I guess that's the best description I can give for now.
"Good", because after being at a somewhat coma state for 2 weeks, he is now awake. I can say the worst complications of this hospitalization have already passed and that he is now on his way to recovery.
"Bad", because his recovery is at a very very very slow pace. He still depends on his ventilator, he cannot move so much, in fact the only thing he can do right now is to look around groggily, and listen. "Bad", because the neuro (and my sister and bro-in-law, who are all doctors) said that most likely, this will take months (thus we moved him to Veterans hospital to slow down the growing hospital bill), and that after all this — if papa survives — papa will be able to come home, permanently bedridden.
Still, I'd like to think that in the end, no smart doctor can conclude God's perfect will. Which means, he could live normally again, OR even ... not come home anymore. Medical explanations no longer matter to me. At this point I have accepted, anything can happen, and whatever the outcome is, it will be the best for everyone. And it will be beyond our control. I guess psyching myself like this is the
Simply, the future is still blurry, so.. I do not exactly pray for healing, but for comfort. Not for myself, but for my dad. But when I'm in a right state to know that it's certainly okay to pray for explicit things, I oftentimes ask the Lord for the extremes - I ask Him not to prolong his suffering, even if it means saying my last goodbye. OR to extend his life at home, long and strong enough to do more milestones in his remaining years ...like walking me down the aisle.
That's it for now. To all those who offered prayers and [moral and financial] support, thank you very much! Until the next post, soon -- I promise to post happier thoughts!
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alt-tab: I just asked Lou to download some oldies songs for papa. I'm thinking of playing songs (through earphones) the next time I visit. He must be really bored by now.
3 comments:
The greatest healing therapy is friendship and love.
-- Hubert Humphrey
glad to hear na nakagising na sya.will continue including him and your family in my prayers.ingat parati :)
get well to your dad sana continuous ang recovery nya :)
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